30 August ~ aLwayS Be My BuTTerFly...

Izzyan Zuheyrah,
Early tis month, ibu's fren text me
She told me to make another one, who know it will be a gal tis time....
As I sit alone, i replied to her, "I already have a dotter..........."
She text me again, "Come and support the government.  Who knows it will be a gal and you'll be complete"
Again i replied, "No thanx.  As i mentioned, I have a gal. Her name is Izzyan Zuheyrah and indeed we're complete"
Then after, there's a complete silence......

I know you will sometimes look down at me and point proudly
See . . .See her . . .over there, That's my ibu!
Did you know whenever it comes into the month of August, especially 30th August,
I will miss you more....
Though i have no chance to know you dearie, but you will always be in my heart...

Darling Izzyan,
Whenever there's rainbow, i will look up and tell ayah, "See, bidadari turun mandi.... "
Without ayah knowing, i will start wondering things.....
If you were around,
Who you would look more like...
How your laugh would sound...
Silly ibu, kan sayang?Do you realised that my homepage song never change? It has always be "Over the Rainbows" cos whenever i hear it, I can feel you....

Izzyan sayang,
I dont event know you but i dreamt of a gerl
That was early is year. 
I my dream, there's Auntie Amy carrying a baby
And there's a little gal, the same gal that looks so much like Abang IZ
Is that you darling?
I dunno if ayah or your brothers ever dream of you.
But if one day, they would tell me a little girl played with them in their dreams 
And if they ever ask, I would say YES...
It might be YOU...

Izzyan dearie,
I am always longing to see you . . .
Sometimes how i wish I can feel you, even though it is only in my dream
A brush against your dress, a breeze on your face...
And sing lullaby together,
Oh goshhhh....when will you come in my dream?

You have always be in my mind and heart
I know that one day, we will be together cos people kept telling me that
You will be waiting for me at the Heaven's door....
And on that day, I cant wait to lift you in my arms and I will hug you so very tight
And i promise you that I will never let go...

But for now I have to...

No matter where you go, what you do, always remember that Ibu is with you
Always know that you are always "Our Little Angel" 
We may not hold u in our arms but ayah and me will always hold you in our heart....
I love you sayang... come in my dreams will you?
I miss you..... kirim salam Nek Midah ok sayang, tell her that ayah miss her too..... so so much!  Ramadhan & Syawal will indeed be diff this year :(

Bye.......... "Kupu Kupu Arash ~ Izzyan Zuheyrah"