SoRRoW....

I was down since Sunday... after hearing wat's been said about us from that someone whom i don really regards as "close".

In my sorrow, suddenly i recalled back the sms which was given by someone dear to me...

"When Allah hides the sunshine, we kept asking.... where is the sun?  Then Allah brought downpours and storm... then we realised that Allah changes the weather cos He wants to bring out the rainbow, and i will see rainbow soon, really really soon"

But still it didn't calm me down.... esp when they heard things which are not true about us.  They are unsure but they choose to still believe, still carry on with the game and not checking wif us to ask if its true....

The saddest part was, when that someone pass remarks, "Nak jaga dia? Tak payah lah, terima kasih..... kita baru nak bernafas"

For the 1st time in my life, i cried so hard during Asar prayers....

How could that someone said such comment? Bila susah, ko carik dia.... bila ko senang, tak pernah ko ingatkan dia.  Apa, ko ingat dia siapa? BABU kau?!

Later, after evening prayers, my mobile rang... and the caller *who is my mentor cos we share the same responsibilities ~ taking care of old folks* lightens up my sorrow and said,

"Not everyone will be happy, seeing you happy ~ tak semua orang gembira melihat anda bahagia"

That caller added, "Good deeds will be rewarded and i believe that you are on the right track"

And i swear, i will head that caller's advice though it will take some time to heal my wound...

I'm sure the RAINBOW will appear, maybe not now but later cos i always believe that Allah maha Adil, Allah maha Kaya.... yang dusta akan dikeji, yang benar akan terbukti.

Yang penting, nawaitu tetap satu..... jaga hingga akhir hayat.

P/S: Orang sentiasa lihat kita tersenyum.  Orang sentiasa lihat seperti kita ni banyak harta.  Tapi orang tak tahu yang kekadang, kita pun SESAKKKKKKKK derrrrhhh!